so basically tonight might have been the worst night of my life. things happened that i can’t even talk about because it wouldn’t be the “full story” if i don’t tell my entire relationship, but let’s just say it was completely fucked up and i’m traumatized and anyone would admit that it’s fucked up beyond belief..and although i fucked up in the past i really don’t believe i deserved this…even though he made me say it or he wouldn’t stop yelling at me. so yeah, fought for literally hours and cried for just as long. got blamed for everything that ever happened and was made to feel guilty constantly. i’ll admit that i said some things that were out of line and would have obviously caused a fight, but i don’t deserve how i was treated all night and how everything i do is wrong but nothing you do i ever at fault, even when it’s the things you get mad at me about. actually ended up on good terms and ready to change our relationship and move forward for the better at one point…until he decided that weed is more important than anything and he doesn’t want to change or sacrifice anything anymore and i just need to let the entire weed problem go and keep everything the same or we can’t be together. and like a dumb bitch, i said okay (even though by “the same” i mean how it is now…not better or butterflies and rainbows). and well i accepted this because i’m afraid to be alone because i was made to feel worthless and told that no one will ever love me after him and i believed it and still can’t let it go. i wish i was dead dude. 

soo I took a sleeping pill last night and its seven hours later and I feel like ive had like ten cups of coffee, what the fuck. i’m pretty sure these things aren’t supposed to keep you awake UGHHHHH

all i wanna do tonight is get blackout drunk and fuck dudes *metaphorically speaking**

okay seriously someone needs to rip elena’s heart out…

so i’ve been watching this show for like 4 days straight, and like  are damon and elena going to fuck each other’s brains out or what? why do girls always pick the lame guy in vampire shows? grr

so jeremy and damon just get hotter and hotter, and stefan and elena just continue to get super fucking annoying ugh

way to be a little bitch, Jon Snow

am i the only one who thinks elena is annoying as shit?

i’m a hypocrite but watching the avengers in 3D high was like one of the best decisions ever. seriously wtf it was so trippy………

so there’s people over my house and my family is peer pressuring me to drink, and I like throw up in mouth everytime I take a sip and someone please just come save me